I really wasn’t feeling like going to church today…
February 22, 2020
It was some of those mornings, as it’s been so often the case lately when I just want to be alone. I woke up, stayed fully awake on my bed and wrestling with myself about the pros and cons of going to church today.
I know it’s a God-given command to honor the Sabbath day. I surely can honor the Sabbath while staying home, logging on to a church service on YouTube – and there are so many available – and worship God from my living room, or even from my bed on my phone, right? Why do I have to get up, get ready and go to church on a dark, cold, rainy winter morning? God will surely understand that I just can’t. And even, I’ve worked all day yesterday. I need some rest. And sometimes I feel like the fellowship in church is a little overwhelming for an introvert like myself… For some reason, I’m not in a very cheerful mood and I don’t want to get it together put a smile on my face and throw myself out there pretending everything is great.
So, having decided all that, I was ready to spend my Sunday morning at home, in my PJs, alone… of course with God being there with me. But alone. Me, myself and God. Sounds awesome.
But for some reason, I found myself two hours later sitting in a church service singing church songs and even taking notes of the sermon that was being preached! And that’s not all! the best was yet to come! I’ve had such an amazing time after the church service discussing with not only friends of mine but also people I’ve never talked to before!
Ok, let me tell you what made me decide to go to church.
After deciding that I was staying home, I opened my You Version Bible App and read my devotional. After that, just to make sure God was ok with my decision of staying home, I randomly open my Bible to a random verse and see what comes out. Nothing… But I seriously recommend you not to do so. It’s not biblical, it’s superstitious. And God condemns all forms of divination! Much more dangerous, a Bible verse taken out of its context can cause so many damages! I wasn’t aware of this when I did it. But now, you and I know 🙂
What made me decide to go to church is my daily verse from the Bible Promises App. Namely, Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness[a] will go before you,
and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.
It was reassuring for me to hear that the creator of the universe, the one who forms the stars, the one who calls everything into existence, the Lord my righteousness says He is not only going before me but also keeping my back! It’s a good enough reason to get up, shake the bad mood off and go to church. No matter what happens there, even if I come back home more depressed than I got out – which definitely isn’t the case –, guess what? I will still think it was worth it. Because He is with me, it’s a good enough reason to do everything that seems to be a burden.